Just take a Step to Happy....

Anyone who truly knows me shouldn't be shocked that I'm a music lover. I like all kinds of music from Jazz to Hip-Hop to RnB/Soul, I'll even listen to a little country if the words speak to me but finding someone else who shares the same enthusiasm about music is odd. I like to think of my self as "Queen Jukebox" lol that name was stolen but it's very fitting.  Anyway, I realized that I like music and words so much because it literally speaks to just about anything you are going through. I could be happy, sad, mad, loving and basically find a song that will fit my mood. 

Over that last couple of days, I've been tested with my musical arsenal by "King Jukebox" who unfortunately loss the title but it made me realize that sometimes change is good. I guess what I'm saying is with everything I go through on a daily basis certain people or things can make you analyze and look at things (you already noticed) a little differently.  Change can be life altering, scary and unpredictable but those are all the things I feel as I'm waiting for my phone call to receive a new liver.  I'm inspired by positivity, music and people and I use those things to help me on a daily basis.  So I guess I have to thank "KJ" for adding a little more too my musical arsenal and a step to happy! 

Public Service Announcement...

Why do people that don't know you that well feel it's their right to say anything to you? If I said half the things I thought out of my mouth I'm pretty sure it wouldn't end well. For example, in the past week I've had people make comments to me that are a little insensitive and offensive. So let me give you some examples:

"Oh my you lost so much weight," "You're so skinny," "You really look sick," Your stomach is so big, what happened."  Now keep in mind, none of these damn comments are started with a HELLO, HOW ARE YOU, WHAT HAVE YOU BEEN UP TO..I mean absolutely NO greeting at all.  I'm usually offended because 1. You have no idea what the hell I'm going through 2.  News (insert explicit) flash I've always been petite and small and 3. I didn't ask for your opinion in the first place.

Now let's flip it...What if I said oh my you're so fat, wow what happened to the edges of your hair, your face is so bumpy, of course I would be the rude one but it's really the same line of questions and comments. But I guess it's that double standard rule that I don't agree with in the least bit. 

So here's a nice little freebie for people that tend to say anything out their mouth. Watch what and how you say things because you don't know what that person is going through, been through or ending. You might just catch someone on the wrong day and they may just CLAP BACK AT YOU! 

Blessed and Supported...

I AM BLESSED! Today, I woke up and went to the 8am church service and listened to a great sermon. Have you  ever been somewhere and said I'm right where I belong? Well, today that is what I experienced at CANAAN Baptist Church. It was as if I was placed in that pew to hear that sermon to cry and laugh and here the message.

With that being said, it made me think that no matter what I'm going through I'm not going through it alone. I mean physically and mentally I'm the one dealing with the day to day of AIH but I realize I'm never ALONE on this path!  I could go through a list of Griffin's and Crenshaw's that support me but that's my family so I expect that from them (for the most part) but I have an extended network that is there for me as well. These are the people that I call FRIENDS and they span from NY, NJ, PA, MD, DE, NC, ATL and LA. In times like this your true friends reveal themselves and step up.  The people in all these different states have supported me from the beginning with texts, calls, FaceTime, email and reading my blog. 

Like I said this posts was initially inspired from a great sermon (1 Kings 19:5) that inspired me to write about my great day and even better my great support team!  So thx to all that read my posts and keep me smiling! 

xoxo

Puzzles, Cousins and Convo's....

Today was a pretty good day! I woke up and did my daily routine: breakfast (this time mini pancakes and eggs with some blackberries on the side) and took my meds. This time I didn't take my standard nap afterwards because I had a nice surprise visitor! 

My cousin, Larry came over and we talked and laughed, he also helped me put together this 1000 piece Butterfly puzzle I'm working on (hey I have to keep myself) and we continued to laugh and talk for the next couple of hours. I'm usually not up for much company but today it was great because he always makes me laugh. On top of my cousin coming to visit me I found out that my LFT's (liver function tests) look a little better and the yellow in my eyes is continuously getting lighter and lighter.  So yes, today was a pretty good day! 

In a perfect world I would receive my phone call telling me a liver was waiting for me but that's not my world right now. Instead, I get reassurance from my doctors, family and friends that one day that will be my perfect world. I will be able to get back to traveling, shopping sprees, spending time with my loved ones and work. Yes, I said work when you haven't been since January you start to miss your routine. For now, I guess I will just live my life as it is right now.